Year end

Let’s face it, 2021 was an interesting year. We were so optimistic about how much better it would be than 2020. And in some ways it was. But boy did the challenges keep coming.

One thing I enjoy about the year end is looking back at the things I’ve achieved. This year I was struggling to see what those were. So I took some time to look closer. There was a lot that didn’t happen. But there was a lot that did.

In time honoured tradition, I made a list…

So, in 2021 I:

  • recovered from Covid
  • made the best of Covidland
  • saw my business grow
  • picked up new clients
  • met some incredible people
  • lost touch with some others
  • saw friendships deepen
  • saw friendships wain
  • laughed till I cried
  • cried till I laughed
  • watched people grow
  • learnt new skills
  • kept blogging even if no-one read it
  • kept putting one foot in front of the other
  • took Buddy to 4 training camps
  • won rosettes
  • got more bruises
  • had lots of lessons
  • visited new places
  • made more memories
  • supported my parents
  • lost Nero
  • watched the kittens grow
  • met my eventing heroine Lucinda Green
  • had her teach me and interview me
  • put myself out there
  • took time to develop myself
  • felt the love and support of others

But above all, I’ve taken time for me. I’ve learnt a hell of a lot about myself this year. I’m ending it in a better place than I started it.

If you’re reading this, I’d like to thank you for being part of this year and my journey.

Here’s to 2022 and whatever it holds for us all. Fingers and toes crossed it’s a good one.

Reflection time

So it’s been two years since I found out I was being made redundant for the third time and 9 years since I found out I was being made redundant for the second time. Talk about significant career date. You couldn’t make it up!

Understandably, I’ve been in reflective mood. I don’t feel like I’ve achieved much in the past 12 months again. Covidland is weird. That’s all I’m saying.

I didn’t think there would be more lockdowns.

I didn’t think both of my parents would be in and out of hospital (again).

I didn’t think I’d spend time in hospital with Covid myself.

I didn’t think being my own boss would be such an emotional rollercoaster.

I’ve lost friend I thought would be there forever. I’ve made ones I can’t imagine my life without. I’ve been scraped off the floor by some. I’ve been humbled by how far some will go for me.

I’ve learn so much about myself. It’s shown me that I am resilient, resourceful, determined, tenacious and so much more.

I’ve learnt to ask for help. I’ve learnt to help others the best way I can.

It’s been scary. It’s been emotional. It’s been so hard having to face so many things on my own. I’m grateful for the incredible people I have in my corner.

I know things will get better. I just have to keep moving forward and trusting the process. I will keep fighting, growing, believing, hoping and loving.

Resillience

This quote came up on my memories. It a yearly reminder I guess to look back and recognise the journey I’ve been on this far.

Things have been challenging. I’ve had to face many things in the past few years alone. Let alone my lifetime so far. They don’t define me. But it’s sure part of my story.

Things continue to be challenging for me. I know many people who are struggling in one way or another too.

My ear is there to listen. My shoulder is there cry on. And my arms are there for hugs…

I’m grateful to the wonderful people I have in my life who regularly do the same for me. Thank you.