6 years ago I posted this on FB. It was a decision that I made many years ago, to stop letting fear hold me back. Don’t get me wrong, I still get fearful. But I’ve worked how to use it as fuel. It sometimes takes longer than others. This year has challenged me at times.

Today I have spent a lot of the day reading ‘The Fear Bubble’ by Ant Middleton. So seems right to post this today.

Guess I won’t be sorting out the wormery… More rest for me then.

Dodo has stayed with me. Good news! The snot is abating. Bad news! My throat is still very sore. I’m still feeling dreadful. Just a little less dreadful each day. So that’s good.

Hugo and Nero have been cuddled up most of the day. It makes you realise how brown Nero has gone in his old age.

OK I’m boring myself now. But I’m feeling as rough as a badger’s arse! I love that phrase. It’s very apt right now as my throat is still so sore and I’m still feeling rubbish. Slept lots of today, in between watching Despicable Me & 2 for good measure.

No results yet so even if I was feeling better I still couldn’t go anywhere. I can’t even start the antibiotics until I get my results. Just in case.

I hate moaning. But quite frankly given everything else that’s happened this year, it’s beyond a joke now. I’m so fed up of being hit by thing after thing. Whether it’s to me, my parents or all of us at the same time!

Don’t get me wrong, there has been so much good stuff too. It’s just right now, I think I’ve had way more than my share!

Fingers crossed the last quarter of 2020 is better than the first three put together!

So it seems Dodo is a fan of minions too!

So it’s done. My Covid test is in the post. Can’t exactly say it was pleasant. Made me sneeze more than gag (I’m sure there’s a joke in there somewhere).

Interesting turn of events though. Had to shine a torch on the back throat to see what I was doing. Suddenly saw lots of white pus! So it appears I have tonsilititis!! No wonder my throat has been sore.

Spoke to the doctor who said it definitely sounds like tonsillitis (and white pus in throat isn’t a Covid symptom). Antibiotics for me then.

I haven’t had tonsillitis for at least 2 decades or so! Very random indeed!!

I’ve made it to the great outdoor. Still feeling dreadful but at least I can get some fresh air!

Today Nurse Nero took over caring duties. He’s barely left my side. Not that I’ve gone very far. I did manage to leave the house and ventured into the garden. Made it as far as the conservatory steps before I ran out of energy.

I hate feeling so low on energy. Very unusual compared to my normal tiggeresque. Hoping I sleep better tonight.

Still I know it will pass and I will be back. Good news is my Covid test has arrived. Bad news it was after the last post so I’ll have to do it tomorrow. Fingers crossed it’s negative!

I said when I started this blog that I would be as honest as I could be. Well buckle up!

I feel utterly dreadful. After sleeping for about 20 hours yesterday, last night I tossed and turned. I couldn’t breath as my nose is blocked. And running at the same time. I had to deploy the ‘nose tampon’. I’m having to breath through my mouth, which isn’t helping my sore throat. Neither is the fact my body decided that a mass evacuations of both ends was in order!

I ache all over. My glands are up in my neck so that even stiffer. Whatever this is, it’s is utterly vile. So I’m admitting defeat and cancelling the lovely things I had in my diary for this week. Including a relaxing treatment, a birthday outing and our first ODE. Dissappointing but there will be another time.

Oh and to top it off, one of the cats has been sick in the conservatory.

All I want is a big hug and someone to tell me it’s going to be OK. Really not helpful at the best of times.

Thankfully I’m rarely ill, but when I am it’s usually pretty spectactular!!