I’ve felt really flat and drained today. I feel like I’ve been in limbo forever, in fact all of 2020. It’s starting to get a bit warring.

I want to get on with things. I want to work. I want my business to be successful. I’m ready. I want to get going with Buddy. I want to see my friend and family. I want to truly celebrate my birthday. I’m frustrated that things aren’t going as fast as I want them to. A common theme in my life.

I know that it will all come together. I know that limbo never lasts forever. It’s hard when you look at that bar and wonder if you’re ever going to be able to get under it without making a complete idiot of yourself (or at my age pulling something). So I’m raising the bar myself, taking some of the pressure off and trusting that everything is going to be OK.

My Mum is back in hospital again. This hasn’t helped my mood. It’s hard not to worry about her and my Dad when they’re so far away. And even more so in this crazy Covid world we’re living in.

So today I had a self-care day. I did a long meditation, I went for a walk and I took the time to appreciate the beauty that’s all around me. I may be in limbo, but very lucky that it’s a beautiful limbo.

Buddy and I headed over to Marsham this morning to meet up with a good friend and her horse. We had a truly wonderful 2.5hr hack round the heath and woods. Just what the doctor ordered.

I really like this. As you may know, I’ve been through a few challenges recently. But the last few days have made me look back and see how far I’ve come. Sure I wobble. I feel like this year has been like some SAS obstacle course in many ways. I’m learning that I can cope with whatever life throws at me. And now I’m putting my energy into my new business, Buddy and making my life the best it can be.

Oh poor Hugo! He’s just learnt a valuable life lesson. Always check the toilet seat is down before you jump on it. 😳 He’s rather soggy now as he had to have his first bath after the experience…

After returning to fleeces and jumpers this week, the shorts were deployed again today. Gosh it’s been beautiful here, but so hot. I rather stupidly decided to sort out the greenhouse this morning. Talk about roasting!! Still I had a very productive few hours in my garden sitting the veg out.

Then popped Buddy over a few jumps. He got a gold star today. I’ve had him on a different supplement and it really seems to have made a difference. So that’s good. I’ve also bought him an infrared poll guard as he gets very tight there. That seems to be relaxing him too.

Thought I’d catch the final rays of sun in the garden. While I love the fact Nero wants to be with me, I’m not sure he’s got the hang of sunbathing. As if I need a hot water bottle…

All in all today has been a very good day.

Buddy made me laugh today as he insisted on taking a snack with him on our hack. He looked like quite the hillbilly. Great hack. Think the boys were happy that we can canter out again. Buddy showed me he’s still got a good turn of speed on him as we shot off up the track. Just what I needed after feeling pants this week.

The world seems to have gone a little weird again. I’m not a political person. I try to see the best in everyone and everything. But it’s really hard to get your head around things when there’s so much noise again. It’s OK that we have differences. It’s OK that we think differently. It’s OK. The past doesn’t change just cause we try to rewrite it or erase it. Things don’t change unless we change the present and the future.

This is one of my ‘Pipisms’. I posted it on my business page, but it feels right to post it here too. There’s always something good. That’s why I started this blog. It’s helped me find my sparkle on the darkness days.

What a stunner! It’s a poppy yes, but a different colour to the other poppies in my garden. But just as beautiful. The other poppies don’t shun it because it’s not the same as them. They embrace it and give it just as much space as they have.

Sometimes you can learn a little bit just by looking around you. Nature is a wonderful metaphor for the good in life.

This picture cracks me up. Not a clue what I was so confused about?! I’m fortunate that I usually take a good photo, but none of us are perfect. So it’s always good to embrace that fact! And always be able to laugh at yourself.

I’m feeling so much better today, not sure what yesterday’s snotfest was about. But there you go. I did an amazing meditation last night – to heal colds and flus. I feel asleep during it, that never happens! Did the trick though.

I’m still a little snotty (insert your own jokes), but a lovely hack out did me the power of good. Buddy got his groove on and was striding down the road.