Welcome to blog! I started it in 2020 to chart my recovery from breaking my ankle (hence the name). I guess no-one saw a global pandemic coming. It's turned into a place where I can talk about the things happening in my life, my horse and my cats. Enjoy!
Before and after the Monday Morning HIIT session with Michelle at Adrenalize. Definitely got my heart rate up. I managed to do most of the higher intensity ones and my ankle is good. I love skater and punching. I hate burpees, they hurt my ankle so did a bit one sided. Managed to punt Tom across the floor in the kicking section. Memo to me: lock cats out as doing sit ups with a cat on your stomach is hard!!
This makes me very happy. 7:10pm and it’s still light. Summer is on the way. Makes me think of evening hacking and cider in the garden. Just need this virus to sod off now.
It’s been a bit of a random day to various reasons. Not least the weather which has decided to do four seasons in one day! Haven’t been out for my walk as fear I will be blown away, get hyperthermia in the snow or injured by giant hailstones. This did make me happy though. My first seedlings. I shall at least have lettuces to eat.
When I was on my walk today it reminded me of when I used to hack Murphy around the area. Before I moved to my little house, I’d look over used at these houses as we crossed this railway bridge and think how wonderful it would be to live there. Little did I know that I would end up buying a house there…..
Today’s walk. It was a tad blustery. Went on a new route out of the end of the close. Found a beautiful church and cows! I can hear them from my garden if the wind is in the right direction. It’s a lovely reassuring sound.
What have you done with your hour of exercise?
I miss hugging people. In fact I miss people. Thank god for technology to keep me connected. I really would be going stir crazy without it. I think that’s why I’m missing going to the yard and work so much. It’s not just Buddy I’m missing, it’s spending time with people.
Social distancing and isolation are the right things to do at the moment but the minute I’m allowed to hug again – watch out people!!
After 4 days of house arrest, I couldn’t take it any longer. I needed to get out of my house and garden. So I went for a walk and didn’t see a soul! It was very odd. Just a few cars, a couple of tractors and a bus. Everyone waved hello. The community spirit is definitely returning.
I found this rather long snowdrop hidden in the overgrown bush. Even though there was no room or light, it didn’t die. It just grew taller. Made me thing of where we are right now. We need to adapt to our new circumstances and that’ll become our new ‘normal’ whatever that is.
My second happiest place is in my garden. I haven’t been out there much this year so today I spent 5 hours cutting back the overgrown hedges and bushes. Full brown bin stopped play, but I’m pretty impressed with how much tidier it looks.
I’ve thought long and hard about posting this picture. It’s me at my most vulnerable. I’m not posting it for sympathy. I’m posting it for awareness – that’s it’s OK not to be OK. Especially right now. The last 48 hours have been an emotional rollercoaster for me.
Monday I felt useful for the first time this year when I went to work for my chiro. Sadly there were people who didn’t agree with that choice. That and the fact is come into contact with someone who now has CV symptoms. It was suggested that I go on 7 days isolation. Which I am doing. It felt like a bit of a kick in the teeth as I’ve spent most of the year in a form of isolation and have just going going again.
Then the whole country stopped…
Yesterday I woke up and decided to try and focus on what I could do. So I planted my seed ms and I was feeling good about myself again.
Then Rover decided to slap me round the face. Again. I felt so alone. I just wanted a hug and someone to tell me it’ll be OK. People are so freaked out about the virus. I’m not. I’m more freaked out about not being able to get a job, losing my house and not being able to keep Buddy – the things most dear to me. I just can’t see how the country can recover from the economic impacts of this right now.
The final straw was being told that the yard is now on lockdown too. I totally understand the decision and respect it, but it breaks my heart to know that I won’t be able to see Buddy for a minimum of 3 weeks. There will be people who think he’s just a horse. But he’s so much more than that. He’s the reason I get up when I feel low. He’s the reason I keep fighting and putting one foot in front of the other. He’s my best friend, my partner-in-crime and my confidant. He keeps me happy, healthy and sane.
I headed to bed last night and pulled the covers over my head, hoping I’d wake up from this nightmare year. It’s been so tough for me personally. I’ve broken my ankle, lost my job, my Mum’s had a stroke and I’ve been ill and. lost my voice. Now this.
So this morning I sat listening to the birds and wrote a list of all of the things I can do right now.
So that is what I’m going to do. I’m not OK. But I will be. This is a very odd time. We need to be kind to each other. Look out for each other. We will get through this. Together.
