Stable relationship

So it’s World Mental Health Day. Well this is the single biggest thing that keeps my mental health stable. You could call it my ‘stable relationship’.

I’ve been very open about my mental health struggles over the years. I’ve been a frequent visitor to dark places. Horses have always helped me to find a way back to the light.

I’ve cried so hard I’ve feared I’d never stop. I’ve laughed so hard I’ve never wanted it to stop. I’ve had times when I felt like I could conquer the world. Then I’ve been scared to leave my house.

I’ve felt such pain and such joy I couldn’t breathe. I’ve felt nothing and everything. I’ve loved. I’ve lost. But I’m still here. Getting up over and over again. Trying to give more than I taken. Finding joy in the little things. Smiling, laughing and loving.

Mental Health isn’t obvious. It isn’t straightforward. It is something we all have. We shouldn’t need a day to tell us to think about it. It should be part of our daily life.

So let’s all try to look after ours. Do what makes you feel good. Be with people who make you feel good. But most importantly be kind – to yourself and others.

And if you’re struggling right now (as many seem to be), know that you are safe, you are loved and you are very much appreciated.

World Mental Health Day

So it’s World Mental Health Day. Well this is the face of a person who has..

had bouts of depression
had bouts anxiety
faced many struggles
overcome so much
cried so hard they’ve feared they’ll never stop
laughed so hard they’ve never wanted it to stop
had so much energy they can’t sit still
had so little energy they can’t get up
thought so much they can’t sleep
been so tired they can’t wake up
felt like they can conquer the world
been scared to leave their house
cared too much
not cared at all
felt such pain they can’t breathe
felt nothing but numbness
loved deeply
been hurt even deeper
been a frequent visitor to dark places
always found a way back to the light

Mental Health isn’t obvious. It isn’t straightforward. It is something we all have. We shouldn’t need a day to tell us to think about it. It should be part of our daily life.

So let’s all try to look after ours. Do what makes you feel good. Be with people who make you feel good. But most importantly be kind – to yourself and others.

And if you’re struggling right now (as many seem to be), know that you are safe, you are loved and you are very much appreciated.

Mental Health

So here the thing that has the biggest positive effect on my mental health! And he’s completely oblivious to how much he helps me. He’s far too busy stuffing his face.

This little boy gets me out of bed on a bad day. He keeps me going when things look bleak. He motivates me to work hard. He’s made so many of my dreams come true. He makes my heart melt. He makes me smile.

And because of him, I’ve met so many amazing people, had some incredible experiences and made memories I’ll never forget.

Eventing fun

I was meant to be eventing today. I’m still recovering from this cold so I had to withdraw. I knew my energy levels weren’t there to do my best. So what’s the next best thing – grooming instead!

Headed over to Blackwater to support a friend. Eventing makes me happy. So even if I couldn’t compete, it was great to be back out with horses.

Found out it’s World Mental Health Day. Seems right that I talk about how horses are my coping mechanism when life is tough. Horses have saved me from myself more times than I care to mention.

Mental Health isn’t obvious. It isn’t straightforward. It is something we all have.

Make sure you’re looking after yours. Do what makes you feel good. Be with people who make you feel good. But most importantly be kind – to yourself and others.