Author: langlep

So 2020 was going to be my year. The year I got my life sorted after being served redundancy notice from my job in November 2019. The year I ticked off more things from my horsey bucket list. The year I got my mental health back under control and reduced stress in my life. I had a plan. And it was a good one. Then the plan changed dramatically on 2 January. I came off my horse at speed and broke my ankle. Badly. Like all good equestrians, I got back on and rode back to the yard, sorted Buddy out and then drove myself to A&E. That’s where this journey really began... I was sent home from A&E and told to crack on, only to receive a phone call later to say they’d missed a fracture (and a rather serious one at that). Whoops! So fracture clinic on 3 January, surgery on 5 January and home to recover. I started this blog as a way to chart my recover back to the saddle. As I cleared clinics and competitions out of my diary and wondered what the next few months would bring, it's been a safe space for me to say how I'm feeling. The new plan was to get a new job, to keep Buddy is kept ticking over and recover from my injury. Another good plan! I didn't expect a global pandemic, lockdown and all that happened in 2020. This blog has changed over time but it's continued to be my safe space to share the things going on in my life, with Buddy and the cats. Enjoy!

Gratitude

So today I ticked something off my todo list that’s been on there for a good few months now. I completed the NLP Practitioner course I’ve been doing and submitted the final test. Fingers crossed I pass it.

It made me think about things a bit differently. I first did NLP training over 10 years ago. But my life was so chaotic that I never took it any further. Redundancy and lockdown have given me the chance to do a few things I’ve wanted to but never had time for.

I’m seeing this time off as a gift now. And I’m grateful for it. I know I need to start earning some more money soon. It’ll come. For now I’m going to enjoy this gift. So this afternoon I sat in the garden with my boys and watched the clouds go by.

Dodo is auditioning from Brundall’s Next Top Model by the looks of him. I’m so lucky to have 4 very gorgeous boys in my life.

Antibiotics

Started the antibiotics today. Fingers crossed they kick this into touch. I was looking for a picture of Alexander Fleming (the inventor of penicillin) and came across this one. Interesting USP there… This was in the days before substantiation I’m guessing.

Freedom

I left the house!! Only to go to the yard to see Buddy (who promptly told me off). Lots of cuddles with him. I’m about a 5 on the Tigger scale, so I am improving. Just not fast enough for my liking. I will be calling the doctors in the morning for some antibiotics to try and knock this on the head.

In case you hadn’t noticed, I detest being ill. Such a waste of time and energy.

Fear

6 years ago I posted this on FB. It was a decision that I made many years ago, to stop letting fear hold me back. Don’t get me wrong, I still get fearful. But I’ve worked how to use it as fuel. It sometimes takes longer than others. This year has challenged me at times.

Today I have spent a lot of the day reading ‘The Fear Bubble’ by Ant Middleton. So seems right to post this today.

Brotherly love

Dodo has stayed with me. Good news! The snot is abating. Bad news! My throat is still very sore. I’m still feeling dreadful. Just a little less dreadful each day. So that’s good.

Hugo and Nero have been cuddled up most of the day. It makes you realise how brown Nero has gone in his old age.

Still sick

OK I’m boring myself now. But I’m feeling as rough as a badger’s arse! I love that phrase. It’s very apt right now as my throat is still so sore and I’m still feeling rubbish. Slept lots of today, in between watching Despicable Me & 2 for good measure.

No results yet so even if I was feeling better I still couldn’t go anywhere. I can’t even start the antibiotics until I get my results. Just in case.

I hate moaning. But quite frankly given everything else that’s happened this year, it’s beyond a joke now. I’m so fed up of being hit by thing after thing. Whether it’s to me, my parents or all of us at the same time!

Don’t get me wrong, there has been so much good stuff too. It’s just right now, I think I’ve had way more than my share!

Fingers crossed the last quarter of 2020 is better than the first three put together!

Covid test

So it’s done. My Covid test is in the post. Can’t exactly say it was pleasant. Made me sneeze more than gag (I’m sure there’s a joke in there somewhere).

Interesting turn of events though. Had to shine a torch on the back throat to see what I was doing. Suddenly saw lots of white pus! So it appears I have tonsilititis!! No wonder my throat has been sore.

Spoke to the doctor who said it definitely sounds like tonsillitis (and white pus in throat isn’t a Covid symptom). Antibiotics for me then.

I haven’t had tonsillitis for at least 2 decades or so! Very random indeed!!