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Reflections

Bit of a weird day for me. 10 years ago my then husband came home and said he didn’t want to be married anymore. Another life-changing event in my life.

I’m sad that it didn’t work. I honestly thought after everything that happened after my brother’s death, we would get through anything. But it wasn’t to be. I’ve accepted my part in it’s failure and I’m working on forgiving myself.

I chose to fight for me rather than my marriage. I chose to put my energy into creating a life that worked for me. Rightly or wrongly. I’m very proud of how I have handled the trials and tribulations of the past 10 years alone. And let’s face it there have been some doozies!

I’m disappointed that I haven’t met someone else. I know I needed this time to heal, rebuild and grow. To work on me. To work out what I need in my life. And what brings me joy.

Today, I sat on my conservatory steps and reflected on how far I’ve come in the past decade. I sure didn’t think I’d still be single. Again, that’s how the cards have fallen.

I’m sure I will meet another man one day. This time I won’t need rescuing though. Till then, I have a ‘stable’ relationship. Yes, I’m talking about Buddy.

And I’m know I have the love and support of so many people. I’m grateful for those who let me cry on their shoulders, vent my frustrations or help me with the mundane two-person tasks. Being single has it’s benefits. But my god there are times when I definitely need an extra pair of hands, a hug or someone to carry a tiny bit of the responsibilities I have on my small shoulders…

Overly caffeinated

It seems that many things in life are getting smaller so imagine my surprise when I ordered a large coffee and got a soup bowl full!!

It was a good job it had two handles as I’m not sure I would have lifted it with just one!

Now I’m very partial to a coffee but this was too much even for me. I was overly caffeinated indeed. And partially baked as we sat in the sunshine. It was a tad warm behind the glass. Still it was 3 hours of non-stop talking putting the world to rights.

Sunday brunch

Headed off early to meet up with two of my camp friends for a hack round Blickling. We took a different route and were out for two hours! I could have kept going. It was so lovely. We chatted all the way round.

It seemed lots of people had the same idea as the car park was rammed. Two people had parked so close to the Buddymobile, I wasn’t sure how I was going to get out. Thankfully they came back as I was putting Buddy away so I didn’t have to do a 97 point turn.

Honestly, some people have no common sense. My lorry isn’t huge but I do need more than a couple of feet end. I wish I’d taken a photo of it. It really beggered belief. Still no harm done and it didn’t spoil a lovely morning.

Fuel in the tank

Well if this lot doesn’t keep me going, I’m not sure what will! Tried my first shake today before I headed to the yard. Can’t say it’s the best thing I’ve ever tasted, but needs must. And it certainly helped me get the calories I needed.

Got a great suggestion on how to make it more palatable. Bought 3 different flavours to try so will see which one I like the best. Might do a bit of mixing too. So far so good.

Competition prep

My new competition sticky jods have arrived. A winter thermal pair and a lightweight pair. All part of the master plan to crack dressage (and competing).

Also part of the master plan is sorting out a snaffle for Buddy as he’s been unsettled in his mouth. Today we tried a different one and there was a definite improvement. Got a couple more to try too so fingers crossed we find one he likes.

I’ve also ordered some meal replacement shakes to try and sort out my nutrition issues. One thing I’ve realised is that I’m not setting either of us up for success by not looking after myself. So making a conscious effort to improve.

Just need to enter some competitions now….

Ruby Murray

What a treat for a Thursday night. A curry and a catch up.

I actually tried something different too. I say I’m going to but when it comes to ordering the words ‘chicken tikka bhuna’ comes out of my mouth.

Not tonight. Tonight I had chicken shashlak. And it was bloody lovely!!

Verglas

My heart sank a little when I opened the curtains this morning. A heavy frost and thick white mist greeted me. After such a glorious few days, it really felt like Spring was on the way. It wasn’t long though before the sun broke through.

I spent most of the day on calls. The last one, I sat in the conservatory basking in the sunshine. And I spotted the tiniest glimpse of pink on the camellia buds. I must admit I got very excited about that! Thankfully the lady I was talking to completely understood. And retorted with a very large fox peeing in her garden. I love random conversations.

Hydrotherapy

Buddy Boy became a Beach Boy today. Fab afternoon mooching about on Sea Palling. We totally lucked out with the weather! It was a glorious day.

After initially being slightly weirded out by the waves, Buddy was soon having a paddle. In fact he was rather enthusiastic in his paddling and soaked me!!

How stunning does the beach look?! I love Norfolk, I really do.

Low mileage

Now I am definitely a word girl. I can do numbers, but I wouldn’t say they’re a strength. But I love some numbers. Today the Comedy Car went over to 58,000 miles. That’s quite a cool number.

What was also cool, was that it happened just as I pulled into my driveway.