It’s 3 weeks since my surgery, which means less than 3 weeks left in the cast. That’s cause for celebration! When I broke my little finger, I was back at work after 6 weeks. Even if I was going back to work, I’m not sure it would be that soon. This break is proving much more challenging. I’m going with it as best I can. And while I’m frustrated as hell, I’m focusing on the good stuff in my life. I’ll be back stronger and better before you know it.

Woke up at 11:30am!! That’s unheard of. And after a really good nights sleep. Woke up feeling sad as Buddy and I should have been at a clinic with Jeanette Brakewell today. I’ve had several lessons with her now and I’ve really enjoyed them. My aim is to be ready for the next one on 1 March. It’s good to have goal.

Feeling more level, I got up and had a shower too. I know it sounds silly, but that’s a big deal for me. It takes so much energy to have a shower, even with my chair. I’ve also now mastered the best way to have a seated shower. It’s not as simple as it sounds.

A friend popped over this afternoon with her little dog Dottie. She made me smile as she was tearing round the house. Not sure the cats were as amused though. Nero is definitely sulking.

I had a bad night with lots of vivid dreams. I dream a lot, but since I broke my ankle my dreams seem to be getting more and more random. Woke up feeling rather odd. Guess it’s all part of the healing process. I ached from yesterday’s outing. It was probably the furthest I’d walked on my crutches so my good leg ached too.

I did get a lift when a friend brought her 5 month old puppy to see me. And another friend brought me cake. So not all bad today.

I still don’t feel quite right, even after an afternoon nap. So now nestled back on the sofa resting…

I left the house again to go and see Buddy Boy. Think he was pleased to see me!

This was the first thing I saw on FaceBook when I woke up this morning. It made me smile as it’s very true. I’ve had a lot of time to reflect on my life and the challenges that I’ve overcome so far. And there have been a lot!!

When I went to see a new therapist last year, I gave her the abridged highlights. Her reaction was one word – wow! She said a lot of people wouldn’t be able to cope with one of the things I’ve been through. Yet I’ve thrived through all of them. So I know I will be OK with whatever life has to throw at me next. Your attitude towards change makes such a difference.

Of course it’s scary. I will soon be unemployed. I need to know that I can pay my mortgage, bills and I have a very expensive hobby (though it’s more a lifestyle). I’ve always said that I’ll do whatever I need to to keep Buddy. Even if it means sacrificing stuff for myself. He’s that important to me.

So I’m thanking the lessons of the past and looking to my future. Whatever that looks like. But for now I’m living in the present as best I can. If I do my recovery right and let my body heal, it will put me in the best position to face my future.

Is that a bit deep for a Thursday morning?!

Big day today!! My first check up at the hospital since my surgery. I was a little anxious about it, but I needn’t have worried. The wound is healing very well and the surgeon is happy with my progress. As they had to replace the cast for the final 3 weeks, I decided to change colour to my favourite this time. It’s rather pretty, don’t you agree?

One thing that has bothered me since my accident was whether I could have done anything differently. Or better. I’m not a perfectionist, but I’m always striving to be better. In whatever I do – my work career, my personal life and especially with horses.

I’ve been riding a long time, well over 30 years. I’ve lost count of the times I’ve come off. And every time I ask ‘what did I do wrong?’ I don’t blame my horse. I always look to me first so that I can be a better rider for my horse. I’ve run it through my head a number of times now and I’m having to accept that there was nothing I could have done. It happened so fast and was just one of those annoying falls. It’s hard though.

I’m not scared of getting back on. I did straightaway (even with a broken ankle). I just don’t like feeling like I messed up.

Saw this quote and it made me laugh. I’m embracing the glorious mess that I am. Metal pins, plaster cast and all!!

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Apparently today is Blue Monday. It is indeed judging from the sky today. What a glorious day. I’m back the conservatory topping up my Vitamin D. I’m still on a high from leaving the house yesterday and seeing Buddy. It may have wiped me out and I ache today from using my crutches, totally worth it though. Hope you all have a wonderful day. And if you are feeling blue today, remember it will pass.

I haven’t been able to get to see Buddy since my accident on 2 Jan. It’s the longest I’ve gone without seeing him since I got him 3 years ago. Today I got to go to the yard and see him. It made my heart soar I can tell you!!

It’s given me such a boost to see him. He stuck his head out as soon as he heard my voice and was licking and chewing. He sniffed me all over, including my cast and then started to groom me. He even tried to eat my crutches. It was so good to see him, give him a cuddle and kiss his nose.

I’m so tired now, but it was worth it to see my Buddy Boy!