Author: langlep

So 2020 was going to be my year. The year I got my life sorted after being served redundancy notice from my job in November 2019. The year I ticked off more things from my horsey bucket list. The year I got my mental health back under control and reduced stress in my life. I had a plan. And it was a good one. Then the plan changed dramatically on 2 January. I came off my horse at speed and broke my ankle. Badly. Like all good equestrians, I got back on and rode back to the yard, sorted Buddy out and then drove myself to A&E. That’s where this journey really began... I was sent home from A&E and told to crack on, only to receive a phone call later to say they’d missed a fracture (and a rather serious one at that). Whoops! So fracture clinic on 3 January, surgery on 5 January and home to recover. I started this blog as a way to chart my recover back to the saddle. As I cleared clinics and competitions out of my diary and wondered what the next few months would bring, it's been a safe space for me to say how I'm feeling. The new plan was to get a new job, to keep Buddy is kept ticking over and recover from my injury. Another good plan! I didn't expect a global pandemic, lockdown and all that happened in 2020. This blog has changed over time but it's continued to be my safe space to share the things going on in my life, with Buddy and the cats. Enjoy!

Double trouble

Today I decided to long rein Buddy. He was a tad confused to start off with and just stood there. I know it’s been a few years since we last did it, but I wasn’t expecting him to just plant.

Eventually got him moving and ended up lunging him off both lines. He was an absolute star.

It’s good to switch things up. So grateful for our indoor arena right now I can tell you. The snow is beautiful. I’d like it to go now though…

Ying and Yang

Happy Chinese New Year! Thought this was an appropriate picture. I found the kittens like this earlier. All 3 of my cats have decided that this is the best bed in the world ever!! Of course, last week it was used for storing their toys. Cat logic huh?!

Love my Ying and Yang boys.

All creatures great and small

After my malaise yesterday, I woke up feeling more level again. Nothing’s changed but my attitude. It was good for me to acknowledge how I was feeling.

Had to take my car to the garage as a warning light has come on. One perk is I get to see the calves. And this time there were ponies too. I sat in the car watching them play. I’d like to know more about horse behaviour and psychology. They seemed very content. It was still fascinating watching the interaction between the herd.

Fed up

Today had been one of those day where I’ve been fed up. Not because anything major has happened. Just because. Fed up with the weather. Fed up with the restrictions. Fed up of being on my own. Fed up of not being able to do the things I love. Fed up of not being able to see the people I love. Fed up of not getting work. Fed up of feeling useless. Just fed up.

BUT it’s OK to feel like this. Lockdown Limbo is draining and gets us all down from time to time. As they say ‘we’re all in the same storm, but different boats’. Today I’m feeling fed up, battered and a tad seasick.

I’m not after sympathy. I know it will pass. And it’s not all bad at all. I’m very lucky in so many aspects of my life. I have a lovely house, 3 gorgeous cats, a handsome horse and so many wonderful people in my life. Just some days are harder than others.

Watching the kittens play in the snow did make me giggle. Love their footprints on the conservatory steps. You can tell which are Nero’s too.

And my parents had their Covid vaccination today. Roll on a brighter future for us all.