Family ties

18 years ago, my family changed forever when my brother choose to end his life.

This is one of the last photos that I have of him. It was taken the last time that we were together as a family.

It took me a very long time to accept that it was his choice. I will never understand why he felt that was his only choice. It’s not one I could make as I have too much I still want to do. The past few years have been challenging to say the least. And at times, pushed me to the brink. But I’ve always made it through. I wonder if his death in some way has driven me on. I’ve tried to live my life to the fullest. Like I’m doing it for both of us!

Wherever you are, I hope the decks are hot, the drinks are cold and the party is banging. RIP Chris.

My brother

This is a sad time of the year for me as I remember my brother who died in 2004. We weren’t close but it still makes me sad every year that he’s not here.

So tonight I’ll shed a tear for him, light a candle to remember him and raise a glass to his memory. Here he is bringing in the new year at the Millennium Dome. I love this photo of him doing what he loved most.

Wherever you are, I hope the decks are hot, the drinks are cold and the party is banging. RIP Chris.

Brotherly love

I gave the conservatory a deep clean over the weekend. The steam cleaner made short work of it. The kittens are very appreciative as you can see.

They spent most of the day snuggled up on their tower. They’re just so cute.