Welcome to blog! I started it in 2020 to chart my recovery from breaking my ankle (hence the name). I guess no-one saw a global pandemic coming. It's turned into a place where I can talk about the things happening in my life, my horse and my cats. Enjoy!
Author: langlep
So 2020 was going to be my year. The year I got my life sorted after being served redundancy notice from my job in November 2019. The year I ticked off more things from my horsey bucket list. The year I got my mental health back under control and reduced stress in my life.
I had a plan. And it was a good one. Then the plan changed dramatically on 2 January. I came off my horse at speed and broke my ankle. Badly. Like all good equestrians, I got back on and rode back to the yard, sorted Buddy out and then drove myself to A&E. That’s where this journey really began...
I was sent home from A&E and told to crack on, only to receive a phone call later to say they’d missed a fracture (and a rather serious one at that). Whoops! So fracture clinic on 3 January, surgery on 5 January and home to recover.
I started this blog as a way to chart my recover back to the saddle. As I cleared clinics and competitions out of my diary and wondered what the next few months would bring, it's been a safe space for me to say how I'm feeling.
The new plan was to get a new job, to keep Buddy is kept ticking over and recover from my injury. Another good plan! I didn't expect a global pandemic, lockdown and all that happened in 2020.
This blog has changed over time but it's continued to be my safe space to share the things going on in my life, with Buddy and the cats. Enjoy!
I spotted this mini garden when I was turning Buddy back out today. I love the fact there a tiny fir tree growing in the fence post. It’s so cute. And just goes to show that you don’t need perfect conditions to grow. Isn’t Mother Nature amazing?!
Of course I wasn’t quite so appreciative of the sunshine / showers combo that we got on our ride. The sunshine was lovely. The drizzle, not so much.Thankfully it was more dry than wet. I’m sure this tiny fir appreciated the rain a lot more than I did too.
My get up and go seemed to have gone a bit AWOL when I woke up this morning. I know I sound like a broken record, but it’s been a busy few weeks. Throw into the mix the emotions of yesterday and it’s kinda understandable. It took more out of me that I imagined. Thankfully I had a low key day in the diary.
It was a drizzly morning. I didn’t take a coat on our walk, so ended up a bit damp. The rain makes the cobwebs stand out. There were loads of them. Not great for arachnophobs, but great for arty photos. Well as close as I can get…
After another busy week, I decided to have few hours in the garden. I mowed the lawn. Then instantly regretted it as it now looks even more like The Somme…
Bert’s digging activities have lessened over the weeks, but I need to do a bit of filling in so to speak. Not that my lawn is flat at the best of times. The holes did make mowing a bit more of a challenge. The mower kept getting stuck in the holes.
That and Bert was trying to help by leaving his toy for me to throw. Unfortunately it was in the way most of the time. Thankfully I didn’t go over it with the blades.
When I’d finished, I stood back and looked at my handy work. At first I was disappointed. The ‘lawn’ looks really bad. But I guess it’s all too easy to focus on the bad stuff – the holes, the pee marks etc. There’s still lots of grass too! It will grow back. And Bert will outgrow this phase too. Or that’s what I keep telling myself. It’s another job off the list. Hopefully it’s the last cut for the year too. By Spring, I might have a bit more grass (and less of the other stuff).
Today is World Mental Health Day. Sad that we have to have a day to raise awareness of something that we all have. Everyone struggles from time to time. Some are better at dealing with it, some are better at hiding it and some of us, like me, have made friends with our demons.
We all have good day. We all have bad days. We are all unique, incredible and human.
I have days where my demons get the upper hand, but I’ve learnt over the years how to quiet them. I’ve found the things that make me happy. Being outside, good friends, Buddy, Bert and the kittens to name a few.
Whatever you might be going through, remember you are loved, you are important and you are never alone…
Today I had two very different experiences with the Egyptian Geese out on the fields. First up was Bert, who thought they were magnificent fun! He was having a blast trying to catch them.
He failed miserably as they can fly. While he has Dumbo Ears and can jump high, he hasn’t taken off yet. The geese just moved on to another part of the field.
Buddy, on the other hand, thought they were evil winged creatures. Even though he has seen them every year since I bought him, we still have to go through this every year. The first encounter each year is usually a tense affair. He really doesn’t seem to get them. Fast forward a few days and he’ll get over himself.
Neither he nor Bert seem to understand that they are flapping because of them! Just goes to show the impact we have on others. Well if we stop to notice it. Bert was too busy yapping and Buddy was too busy moonwalking and throwing shapes…
This morning we headed over to Bath University for a tour of their sports facilities. It’s where world class athletes from many disciplines come together to train. It was fascinating watching the ways that the coaches and athletes interacted. We watched some judo, tennis and swimming training sessions. It was very inspiring to see.
Speaking of interacting, this afternoon was all about coaching conversations. Now this is definitely more in my comfort zone! We had a number of riders come in as guinea pigs so the coaches could practise their questioning. Now as this is something I do most days, I volunteered to be one of the riders. Very interesting to be on the other side of the questions.
I could see that some of the coaches were out of their comfort zones, so it was lovely to support them in something I find easy. I’m having some fascinating conversations, meeting some really interesting people and learning loads.
Last day tomorrow. Then home to Bert, Buddy and the kittens. It’s the first time I’ve left Bert. I can’t believe how much I’ve missed him. I know he’s being well looked after though…
Look who I found in the hotel. Seems I am being reminded of Norfolk. Apparently Nelson liked to holiday in Bath. Who knew?! Made me laugh when I walked in and saw him.
I feel like I need to come back here and explore properly. There is no time as the course is full on. But my goodness, I am loving it so far…
Today was all about self. I’ve only had a couple of imposter syndrome moments, I am the only non-riding coach in the cohort. There are some impressive coaches here! I guess I bring a different viewpoint to the conversations.
My Corporate background has put me in good stead for today’s psychometric testing. It was scarily accurate too. It’s interesting that my results have changed over the year as I have worked on my blind spots.
I’ve definitely softened over the years. But then you catch more flies with honey than vinegar as my Namna used to say… To think people used to be scared of me. I’m not the Rottweiler I used to be. Yes, people really did call me that!
Check out my home for the next few days. Lush huh?! I’m in Bath. First time I’ve ever been here and I get luxury for sure.
I’m here for a 3-day residential training course. It’s the first part of a 6 month programme I’m doing on Applied Psychology for Equestrian Coaches.
I did the Foundation level last year and loved it. This is the Advanced level. Bring on the learning! Though my brain is a bit mushed from the two podcasts I listened to on the way down. Both about our belief systems and how they might not actually be our beliefs after all. I won’t bore you with the details, but it was fascinating stuff. And made the journey go faster.
I arrived in good time, so headed down to have a wander round Bath. Gosh it’s stunning. Before heading back to the hotel. There are two things I enjoy about staying in a hotel. Room service is one (hake and chips in case you’re wondering). A bath is the other. As I don’t have one at home, I try to have one in a hotel.
Unfortunately my room only has a shower. So it’s no bath in Bath. I’ll see if I get time to pop to the Roman ones while I’m here…
Meet All Weather Bert! First outing in his new waterproof coat. Though like a good equestrian, I keep calling it a rug. It’s a bit big for him, but hoping he’ll fill out into it. He’s looking very svelte after his haircut. Who knew he had so much fluff?!
I took him out for a walk between meeting and between showers. It’s not been the best weather-wise..
What has been the best was the Butternut Squash soup I made in my soup maker! It’s my best batch yet. I put some mild chilli powder in it. I could have eaten the lot, but I restrained myself. 3 more portions are in the freezer. Who knew I would be good at making soup? And before you say it, I know the soup maker does all the hard work. As someone culinarily challenged, I’m impressing myself!
I needed the calories as I was giving blood tonight. Donation no. 66 done and dusted.
Oh and I paid the balance for Naples.
Lovely ending the week with a few more positives in the bank.
I’m a big fan of alternative therapies. I love a spot of reiki, a sound bath, energy healing or a crystal or two. I’ve had chiropractic treatment for years. I meditate (that’s very much a work in progress). I’m a firm believer that your body knows how to heal itself. So when a friend suggested I go for Bowen Technique, I thought I’d give it a whirl. I figured it would help with my ribs.
Bright and early, I headed for my 8:30am appointment. Slightly trepidatious, but with an open mind. It was weird and super cool. She instantly spotted I’m a wonky donkey. So worked on straightening me up, evening my leg length and giving my rib cage more space. I definitely felt the benefits of it. Well once my body had processed it all and settled into it. To start off with, I felt most peculiar.
As I was leaving, I spotted this bumper sticker. It made me laugh. I think we should all adopt it as a motto. I’m hoping that all of the mindfulness and holistic treatments will prevent dementia. The numberous concussions and bashes to the head might counteract that. Worth a shot though, right?!
In a way, this is part of my mindfulness. My little daily post gives me a creative outlet to share my highs and lows, my woes and wins, my laughs and tears. It’s been quite the rollercoaster ride since I started in 2020. I’ve always done this is for me as much as anyone. If my musings help brighten someone’s day, that’s a bonus.
When I’m struggling, I go back to the beginning to read the post. Boy have I come a long way since then… If you’ve joined along the journey, and need a giggle, feel free to go back to the start too.