Welcome to blog! I started it in 2020 to chart my recovery from breaking my ankle (hence the name). I guess no-one saw a global pandemic coming. It's turned into a place where I can talk about the things happening in my life, my horse and my cats. Enjoy!
Boom! And just like that the black dog hits me square round the face. I was feeling so good that I’ve made it halfway through my cast then boom – I’m in flood of tears.
Depression is such a weird thing. I have anxiety as well so that’s a fun rollercoaster. One minute I’m high as a kite feeling like I should be doing stuff and beating myself up for not. Then the next minute I couldn’t care less.
But I’m learning how to manage Rover (the name I’ve given my black dog) without the help of Buddy. Usually I would have gone to the yard or for a walk. Or done some Pilates. I can’t do those things at the moment so I did a mediation instead. And I made a list of all of the things I like about myself.
Right now I need to feel good about myself, so it would really help me if you could add to my list. Just one thing that you like about me….
It’ll help me to tell Rover that I don’t need him. Or the negative things he tells me. It can be really hard when you’re battling with your own thoughts. This will make me a stronger person though. We all have our demons, so be kind to everyone you meet. You have no clue what’s going on in their heads.
So 2020 was going to be my year. The year I got my life sorted after being served redundancy notice from my job in November 2019. The year I ticked off more things from my horsey bucket list. The year I got my mental health back under control and reduced stress in my life.
I had a plan. And it was a good one. Then the plan changed dramatically on 2 January. I came off my horse at speed and broke my ankle. Badly. Like all good equestrians, I got back on and rode back to the yard, sorted Buddy out and then drove myself to A&E. That’s where this journey really began...
I was sent home from A&E and told to crack on, only to receive a phone call later to say they’d missed a fracture (and a rather serious one at that). Whoops! So fracture clinic on 3 January, surgery on 5 January and home to recover.
I started this blog as a way to chart my recover back to the saddle. As I cleared clinics and competitions out of my diary and wondered what the next few months would bring, it's been a safe space for me to say how I'm feeling.
The new plan was to get a new job, to keep Buddy is kept ticking over and recover from my injury. Another good plan! I didn't expect a global pandemic, lockdown and all that happened in 2020.
This blog has changed over time but it's continued to be my safe space to share the things going on in my life, with Buddy and the cats. Enjoy!
View all posts by langlep
Tales, Tails and Talus 